Let me be blunt; I WANT YOU! There’s not a day that goes by that I do not think about you. From the days I walked on clouds and smiled uncontrollably; to the days I realized I’d been used and discarded like trash. There’s something within my being that still yearns for you.
You see, it gets lonely especially as I come home to me. No pets; not even a pet ant to keep me company LOL! Just me. It’s not that I do not value solitude. There are times I need my space; just not forever.
There’s something about a long drawn out embrace from a man that engulfs me. To cook for a man and hear him say it’s good…he might as well have told me he loved me. That look he gave me when I got caught starting longer than I should have; I revel in it. Flirting with a man who does not expect me to do so…priceless.
Yet love, I admit that my past gets in my way. It keeps my heart locked when I want to allow you in. It reminds me sharply of the hurt and pain imposed upon me; and almost expect to be treated badly because of how I allowed bad behavior to seep into my consciousness as something I had to do to have you. Sometimes I believed this even if the guy in my presence was a straight up jerk! I know this is wrong. I deserve better.
So, the baggage, the fear stops here! I love you, Love. I want you, Love. I welcome you…